You should always speak the truth even if your voice shakes. Hiding how you feel forces you to bottle up those feelings until you explode and things become ruined. However, when you feel something should be said, say it. It spares drama and saves friendships. I’m proud of myself and happy that I said how I felt because now I know I’ve done what I can to improve things. Now I don’t have to feel awkward. I love my friends and I’m so glad they accept and understand me. Happy.
Basically because there, I’m surrounded by amazing people who I can make smile and who, in return, can make me smile too. It’s actually very easy to cry all night and then wake up the next morning and be happy at school like everything’s fine. I know that’s probably unhealthy, but it’s the way I’m dealing with things. If I chose to be outwardly upset, I’d be like that all day and no one likes to be around a Debbie Downer. I’m actually happy with acting happy for the time being.
You do realize that we hear your snide remarks you say under your breath. I mean you are always saying them right next to us. You are hypocritical and rude and we’re getting really sick of it, really fast. Don’t call me your friend unless you’re going to treat me and the rest of your “friends” like it.
I think I’ve grown a lot in the past two years. Two years ago I was preparing for high school and now I’m thinking about exiting in another two years. Two years ago I was extremely broken and insecure. The summer two years ago, was the worst time of my life. My family had recently been thrown back into our own personal nightmare and it left me a different person. I was hurting but I didn’t want anyone to ask so i continued to people please. I though that if I was always happy and there for other, it would help me to feel better too. It didn’t. Turns out when you’re hurting and all you do is things for others, they begin to push you around. Basically two years ago I let people walk all over me because I was insecure about what was going on and because i was hurt. Now, I’ve begun to deal with the problems that made me feel that way. I realized that none of it was my fault and that i shouldn’t beat myself up about it or let others do the same. Today, I’m stronger and much happier.