You’re only ever nice and loving towards me when I’m sick. I would be sick everyday of the year if it meant I could have the old you back. The you that would rub my back as I threw up. The you that would rub my tiny feet as I fell asleep. The you that would go out of your way to make sure I was comfortable and happy. The you who would let my 4 year old self watch soap operas with you while the big kids were at school. The you who would take me to the playground and push me on the swings for what felt like hours. Being sick and having you treat my like a kid again really makes me yearn for those days and the old you. I love you.
Not only do I like your blog (haha I found it) but I also am OBSESSED with you secretly. Ok here we go.. I got this idea from a Tumblr spam I got once lol.. I think you like me too and you were always too shy to admit it :3 go to crushmatches(dót)com (wtf it wont let me link regular) and make an account there. Then look up the profile 'gottagetme19' (me obviously) I left body pictures.. if you can guess who I am hit me up and we'll hang soon. You need a C C but its free
The other day I was at school and everyone got talking about college;the people I was around were ranting and raving about how they all wanted to go to Mississippi State and then they casually asked me where I wanted to go, so I casually replied San Diego State. I though nothing odd at all would come about this considering I thought these people to be friends. I mean they aren’t in my close group of friends, but I still thought them to supportive friends. I was blown away by the responses. After laughing in my face they all asked variations of the same thing, “WHY?!” I tried to explain my reasoning but they kept interrupting me with laughs and judgements. They went on to mock me saying, “If you’re gonna go all the way to California, why don’t you just go to LA, why would you want to go somewhere random in CA like San Diego?!” Then they proceeded to laugh and say I should just go to UT or State or “somewhere realistic.”
I was too shocked to even say anything. But, now I’m doing the classic thing, where you think of the perfect comebacks after the fact. I should’ve said that unlike them, I’ve researched schools and cities in CA to see what would fit me best. San Diego State is a good, affordable state school just like Mississippi State or UT. Also, San Diego isn’t some random city, it’s the 3rd largest in CA. One of the reasons I chose that city is because it’s more affordable than LA. If I wanted to stay close to home I may be considering State or UT, but I don’t, so I’m not. As long as it’s affordable and achievable it is realistic.
I can’t believe you all. I would never bash your dreams or the school you want to go to because we are all different and all are seeking different things from college. I respect you enough to encourage and support you with and unbiased opinion and i hoped you’d do the same for me. But apparently I was wrong. That not only makes me sad and hurt, but also renews my determination to achieve my goals.
“Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing.”—Eve Ensler (via misswallflower)