I’ve been working really hard at a few aspects of my life recently and I’m finally noticing that they’re starting to pay off and this realization is one of the most satisfying of all.
First, I’ve been working my butt off at work for the past year and a half and after I turned 18 I was finally able to start training to be a server where I’ll actually make good money. I’ve already been working a lot more and missing out on a lot of things and I know I’ll miss out on even more things to come; but, just the other day I picked up my first big paycheck and ran food earning tips and I finally felt like all my work and stress and exhaustion over this job was finally starting to pay off. I know some nights I won’t make very much money at all, but other nights will make up for it and I cannot wait to finally start making the money I need to start saving for a car!
Next, I haven’t been very happy with the way I look in a while. However, over the past three weeks I’ve been exercising, eating right, and counting calories and I’m finally seeing positive results in that as well and it makes me so excited!
Finally and most importantly, I’ve been working like a dog to better my relationship with my mom and I’ve truly been trying to live by the quote that literally changed my life and outlook on my family dynamic: “You can’t change who your parents are. The only thing you can change is how you choose to deal with them.”
And believe me when I say this quote is insanely true. For most of my life I refused to move on and I would just whine about the relationship I wish I had with her instead of actually trying to have one. I was too hurt to forgive, to angry to love, and too immature to see any of this. We have our good and bad days but I know that I cannot change her and her faults the only things I can affect is the way I react to these things. It’s helped me to pick my battles and to not get so upset about things. Things are far from perfect and I’ve noticed my dad slipping into some pretty scary tendencies but I’ll keep chuggin along without trying to change them, but constantly evolving in how I deal with them. It’s definitely not easy and sometimes I stumble but what’s important is that in trying.
Yes, I bragged about myself this entire post. I know im far from perfect but im trying to improve myself and I don’t think there’s a thing wrong with that and if you can’t be proud of yourself at times, who can?!
A little self love goes a long way people. You are all interesting, fantastic, and beautiful so love yourself because I promise if you don’t love yourself, no one else will be able to love you. And afterall,love keeps the world spinning.
